Thyroid Cancer Diagnosis: From Sadness to Numbness (Days 4–5)

Thyroid Cancer, I’m Not Even Sad Anymore

It’s been 4 to 5 days since my diagnosis.

Strangely, I’m not as sad as I was at the beginning.

Visiting a Larger Hospital

The hospital where I first had my biopsy recommended a larger hospital.

On March 24, I went there with my sister.

I had only heard about this place before.
I never imagined I would come here as a patient.

At the first visit, I had to register and submit all my medical records.

Every time I come to a hospital, I realize something:

There are so many sick people in the world.

And now, I’m one of them.

The Consultation

After waiting for my turn, I finally met my doctor.

He calmly explained my condition and the upcoming schedule.

The consultation was brief.

Soon after, I had a CT scan with contrast dye.

Because the hospital was so large, moving between departments — signing consent forms, getting the IV inserted — felt complicated and overwhelming.

A Meal with My Sister

I had to skip breakfast for the hospital visit.

My sister took a day off just to be with me.

After everything was done, we went to a nearby market and had our first meal of the day — breakfast and lunch combined.

On the day I was first diagnosed, I couldn’t stop tearing up.

But now…

Maybe time really does something.

I’m not even sad anymore.

“Thyroid Cancer? Kind of Funny…”

My sister was worried about me.

But I found myself saying this several times throughout the day:

“Thyroid cancer? It’s kind of funny.”

That’s not entirely true.

I’m not okay.

Maybe I’m just trying to stay strong.

Still, I feel a little more at ease now.

At least it was caught early.

What Comes Next

There are still several tests waiting before surgery.

I’m currently on medical leave after my Mammotome procedure.

It’s already been a month.

Now with thyroid cancer, I don’t know what will happen next.

Not Just Me

More people than I expected are being diagnosed with thyroid cancer.

I was diagnosed last week.

Someone else might have been diagnosed today.

Someone might be hearing bad news right now.

Acceptance… or Something Like It

It still doesn’t feel completely real.

But worrying doesn’t change anything.

So for now…

“Thyroid cancer? Kind of funny…”