A Subtle Fatigue After Discharge
It has been two days since I was discharged after undergoing a hemithyroidectomy for thyroid cancer. Maybe it’s just in my head, but I feel more tired than usual.
A Walk That Turned Longer Than Expected
Feeling cooped up at home, I went for a walk in the mountains. It’s usually a short up-and-down route, but the weather was so nice today that I ended up doing a full loop.
Along the way, I noticed caterpillars dangling from thin strands of silk, hanging in the air. Not just one or two—almost every few steps, there they were. It looked like they were slowly making their way down from the treetops to the ground. Whenever I came close, I instinctively paused. If I brushed against them even slightly, they would cling to my clothes, and I had to flick them off with my hand.
A little girl walking with her mom nearby kept whining that she didn’t want to go up the mountain because she was scared of the bugs. It was oddly adorable.
Watching those caterpillars struggle to survive in their own way made me think—I should endure just as firmly.
The Anxiety of Returning to Work
My return-to-work date is approaching. I can’t help but wonder if I’ll be able to work with the same physical strength as before. Other patients seem to go back to their routines as if nothing happened, commuting and working normally. I tell myself I shouldn’t become weak.
But when I think about facing all kinds of stress again, I feel a dull headache creeping in. Still, somehow, things will work out. I still have time. I should push down these uncomfortable emotions. After all, nothing is worse than cancer.
Appetite Changes and Small Observations
By the time I got home, two hours had already passed. I had skipped breakfast because I had no appetite, but I forced myself to eat a little for lunch so I could take my medication. I never had a big appetite to begin with, but now it has decreased even more.
I had a green tea latte while walking, but I couldn’t finish it. The ice melted in the warm weather, and I ended up bringing it back home as it was.
Recovery and Quiet Reassurance
Now that the cancer has been removed, there is no cancer left in my body. It’s almost fascinating how my body feels a little better each day. Other than the final pathology results next month and a follow-up outpatient visit, there are no major issues.
Small Lessons from Everyday Moments
On the way to a café, I saw a very young child walking with her mom. She tripped and fell while walking alone. But instead of crying, she simply brushed herself off and stood up as if nothing had happened. She might have cried if her mom had rushed over, but she stayed strong and got up on her own.
From a child who didn’t even scrape her knees, I learned something about composure.
Another Day Will Come
The sun is setting now. Today is coming to an end, but tomorrow will bring another new day.
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