It Was the Summer of 2025
It was the summer of 2025.
I believed I was managing my health well through annual company checkups and additional personal screenings.
Then one day, during a visit to the breast clinic,
my doctor quietly told me that I had multiple cysts in both breasts.
When I looked at the ultrasound screen myself,
I was honestly shocked.
I had a few cysts before — though I had completely forgotten about them —
but now there were around 40.
The Mammotome Decision
My doctor recommended a Mammotome procedure.
Cysts don’t just stay the same.
They either grow larger or increase in number.
At that time, I was working at a logistics center.
Hospitalization for a few days wasn’t easy,
and I even had a family trip planned.
So I couldn’t go through with the surgery right away.
Six Months Later
Time passed.
After 6 to 7 months, I went back to the hospital.
In March 2026, I took a two-month medical leave.
I finally had the Mammotome procedure
and was hospitalized.
For about two weeks,
everything felt uncomfortable —
moving, washing, even daily routines.
The Question That Changed Everything
On the day I was supposed to receive my breast biopsy results,
I asked something casually:
“Should I check my thyroid again?”
Last year, I had a fine needle aspiration test,
and everything was fine.
So I assumed this time would be the same.
An Unexpected Diagnosis
A week later, the result came back.
It was not what I expected.
I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer.
The doctor said it was small and in an early stage,
so there was no need to worry too much.
But honestly,
I couldn’t hear much of what he said after that.
The Word “Cancer”
I just couldn’t believe it.
The word “cancer” didn’t feel real.
The doctor mentioned things I had never heard before —
special case registration,
and the need to go to a larger hospital for surgery.
My mind went blank.
My eyes filled with tears.
Telling My Sister
When I got home, I told my sister.
She started crying like a child.
I still haven’t told my parents.
Even after visiting a larger hospital twice,
I couldn’t bring myself to say it.
Waiting Again
Now, I am waiting again.
The results I brought from the first hospital were unclear,
so I had to go through a third biopsy.
What If It’s Not Cancer?
What if it’s not cancer?
What if the new result says I only need monitoring?
What if I don’t need surgery?
I joined a community of people going through similar experiences.
Some people were diagnosed with cancer, had surgery,
and later found out it wasn’t cancer.
Others were told they needed surgery,
but later switched to observation instead.
Where Do I Belong?
Which case will I be?
I don’t know.
After the third biopsy,
I felt deeply depressed.
When I was first diagnosed, I was just sad.
After about two weeks, I found some emotional balance.
But now,
waiting again for results
feels like a different kind of pain.
The Power of Writing
One good thing about writing is this:
When I look back later,
these overwhelming emotions
might feel like nothing.
That’s why I write.
Maybe when I read this again next week,
I’ll feel something completely different.
Maybe that’s the power of writing.
Tags: thyroid cancer, mammotome procedure, breast cysts, thyroid biopsy, cancer diagnosis story, emotional journal, health blog, personal story
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