Weeks After Diagnosis
It has been a few weeks since I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer.
On the first day, I felt emotional over the smallest things.
Now, I feel strangely calm.
As I wait for the results of my third biopsy,
I spend my days somewhere between anxiety and
“whatever happens, happens.”
Today is April 4.
At this time, I would normally be at work,
fighting off drowsiness while doing receiving tasks at the warehouse.
I thought I would return in May,
but depending on the test results,
my future schedule may change.
A Strange Reality
Things that only seemed to happen in movies or dramas
are now happening to me.
Being sick makes me feel like I should just rest all the time.
Like I should lie down and do nothing.
But instead of giving in to that feeling,
I try to do small things, one by one.
Small Things That Keep Me Going
Nothing big or overwhelming.
Just simple, everyday tasks:
Baking at home.
Reading books.
Studying English.
Doing things right away when I see them.
Not leaving dishes in the sink.
Cleaning my room.
Doing laundry.
These small actions help me feel less powerless.
Taking Care of My Mind
When I start to feel down,
I go for a walk.
I get some sunlight.
I let myself breathe.
Right now,
I am learning how to be kind to myself.
More People Than I Expected
My sister recommended an online community for thyroid cancer patients.
I decided to join.
There were far more people than I expected.
Some were diagnosed on the same day as me.
Some just received their diagnosis yesterday.
Others are recovering after surgery.
Every day, new stories are shared.
Finding Comfort in Similar Lives
Reading their stories brings me a strange sense of comfort.
Even while fighting illness,
people are holding onto their daily lives.
They endure.
They continue.
And through them,
I’m reminded how valuable ordinary life really is.
Time Keeps Moving
Time doesn’t stop.
And I keep thinking:
How should I face this situation?
How should I move forward?
Doctors will treat the illness.
But how I see this,
how I feel about this—
that part is mine.
I hope my emotions can flow
like calm waves,
not overwhelming, just steady.
Becoming Stronger
I’m now in my 40s.
I worry about myself,
but I worry more about my family.
I don’t want them to feel too much pain because of me.
So I try to become stronger first.
Writing as a Way to Hold Myself Together
That’s why I write.
I place my thoughts and emotions
into my own quiet space.
Maybe one day,
when I look back,
this moment will feel different.
For now,
this is how I stay steady.
Tags: thyroid cancer, waiting for biopsy results, emotional healing, daily routine, health blog, personal story, cancer journey, mental health
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