Day 4 After Surgery, Feeling Better Each Day
It has already been four days since my thyroid cancer surgery.
I’m honestly surprised at how quickly my body is recovering day by day.
I had been struggling with constipation until yesterday, but this morning I finally felt relieved.
All the IV fluids and needles were removed the day before, and now both of my hands feel free again.
While I was having breakfast, my doctor came by and told me that they would call me later in the morning to remove the drainage tube.
The moment that once felt so far away — discharge — is now getting closer.
This Friday, I will finally be free from the hospital.
Of course, I may still need outpatient treatment for a few more weeks.
A Small Happiness in Hospital Meals
At this hospital, patients can choose their meals.
For breakfast, I had a croissant sandwich, and it was surprisingly delicious.
I’ve already ordered French toast for tomorrow morning.
Even in a hospital, small choices like this bring unexpected joy.
A Shared Space, Unspoken Emotions
I am currently staying in a five-person hospital room, recovering from surgery.
A new patient was admitted to the bed across from me — an Asian woman married to a Korean man.
From behind the curtain, I could hear the nurse carefully explaining the surgical consent forms.
It made me feel strange.
There are so many sick people in a hospital.
I often notice other thyroid cancer patients who look similar to me.
We don’t speak to each other, but somehow, through our eyes,
I feel a quiet sense of empathy and solidarity.
Maybe it’s just my imagination.
But it feels real.
Sharing Sweetness, Sharing Gratitude
I bought a few snacks from the hospital store as a small indulgence.
My doctor told me,
“You can eat anything after surgery, but don’t eat too much.”
I don’t really have much of an appetite, so I’m only eating about half of what I usually would.
Sometimes I crave something sweet, maybe because I feel a bit empty inside.
But even then, I can’t finish it all.
So instead, I started sharing.
With the nurse who changes my IV.
With the cleaning staff who keep the room tidy.
It’s nothing big — I just wanted to give something back.
A small way to express my gratitude.
And maybe, if we share it together, it won’t turn into extra weight either.
Before Discharge, Holding My Thoughts Together
It’s currently 9:50 in the morning.
I want to spend the rest of my time here meaningfully and even enjoy it.
Sometimes, sad thoughts come to mind.
But nothing has actually happened yet.
Still—
I lost half of my thyroid.
And I lost my boyfriend too.
Goodbye, everything.
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